It's about time...

It's about time that I let you know, that I've had enough and it's time to let you go..
I've been waiting on the sidelines for seems like eternity
for you to call that blitz play that finally lets me make that touchdown with your heart.
I finally realized I'm only going be what they call a "bench warmer".
I'm just here to fill up extra space until you need me.
I'm never going to be the star receiver to your all-American quarterback

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Frustrations part 1 & 2

Frustration pt. 1

My thoughts are constantly running a 4 x 400 on the track that is my mind. I wonder why do I feel that I have yet to move emotionally even though in 15 years, I have gone on physically and somewhat mentally. I feel that what I want most is dangled in my face like a piece of candy that I want but feel deep down inside that I won’t ever have. I have walked away numerous times but you seem to be able to bring me back with your strawberry chocolate covered words that say, “I miss you, I need you, I want you in my life” Yet I stay confused in exactly what role you want me to play in this venture of yours.

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